FIGURED OUT.....

how to rip our DVD's to our IPAD!!! YAYAYAAA...why is this soooooo awesome? well, with matthew going into the hospital on monday, i wanted to be able to put his FAVORITE movies on his iPad because they only have VHS in the rooms (or at least they DID have that) i am not sure if maybe they have upgrade since we've been there...we shall see, but i didn't want to take a chance that that was the case! it is only a trial version for 30 days but at least it will be there for this coming week!! :)

anointing of the sick today....

today was a great day...i had bible study this morning at my church and we were on ACTS 5:1-?? I had all the kids with me because TODAY matthew and i were going to meet with father pat and get an ANOINTING OF THE SICK which is one of the sacrament in CATHOLIC CHURCH! :) i never really new that we could get anointed in times of illnes or before surgery and such until i went to the ACTS RETREAT a couple of years ago....sooo matthew got his done because on MONDAY he will be having dental surgery and have a BRONCOSCOPY done all under GENERAL ANESTHESIA which he has not been under since 2007 when he had a RXN to the anesthesia and went into MOBITZ 2 COMPLETE HEART BLOCK...and it was a VERY scary time for us....soooooo, he was anointed, it was BEAUTIFUL....and then i was anointed too because on tuesday, i go for a PET SCAN to see if there is any more cancer in my body...it was BEAUTIFUL and i am at PEACE after being anointed...

today at the bible study, i am slowly understand and having things in my life be CLEARED UP...what do i mean? AGAIN, GOD has spoken to me about events that had happened in my life....we were talking about ACTS CHAPTER 5 and how the apostles had been beaten for their believe in JESUS and how they REJOICED in being beaten because if they were being BEATEN then that ment that they were doing what they were suppose to be doing in spreading and evangelizing JESUS name!! so they REJOICED in their pain!! they remember that JESUS had said that they were going to be beaten, killed, etc all the thing that had happened to JESUS in HIS NAME....that all will be happening to them like it happened to Him....and what spoked to me was that 8 years ago, what i did was CLEARED up for me..in my PAIN and in the crazyiness of everything that was happening to me and my family with matthew...thru it ALL with matthew heart issues, his surgery, them telling us that he was going to pass away on his 5th day...thru it ALL, i was PRAISING GOD, THANKING GOD and just loving on matthew and just PRAISING GOD for the 39 weeks (pregnancy) and 5 days of matthew's life and all the beautiful memories that we had with him....people didn't and COULDN'T understand why we were not crying, screaming or asking WHY HIM GOD...we never did that...we ACCEPTED what was going on and all we gave matthew up to GOD and told GOD that whatever is HIS will we ACCEPT it and we will still PRAISE HIM. we prayed for a miracle and we PRAYED sooooooo hard for healing but thru it all we thanked and praised GOD...people just didn't understand....and i couldnt explain all i knew was that i had TOTAL FAITH IN GOD that this was HIS WILL and that there was NOTHING WE COULD DO ABOUT IT...IT WAS HIS WILL...

thru this bible studying, i am learning soooo much and GOD is opening my EYES UP to GOD AND EVERYTHING AROUND ME...he is speaking to me sooooo much....I LOVE YOU AND THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE....I PRAISE YOUR NAME!!! :)

God spoke to me...

i LOVE GOD...i am in love with this man!!! and recently i started doing BIBLE STUDY on THE BOOK OF ACTS at our church and oh what an AMAZING thing that is! i have NEVER done a bible study before so this is very amazing and interesting and i just WISHED i had done it A LONG TIME before now!!! i can't wait to finish this one and start on a new one, GOD WILLING!!

this week, we were studying ACTS 4:1-?? and it was really awesome to do a study on this...it had to do with how PETER AND JOHN were arrested because they had healed a beggar at the temple enterance and the rabbi's and leaders heard about it and they were upset because he did it in THE NAME OF JESUS! and they were upset because he kept praising JESUS and they wanted none of that...they eventually had to let them go because they DID NO WRONG...this chapter brought home the thought that JESUS had to go thru a lot on his journey...and that because they loved him so much, they would also have to go thru the same things....prison, fights, etc...and they took on that cross because all they wanted to do was EVANGELIZE about the LOVE, POWER that is JESUS!!! AND one of the things that was brought home was if you are going to joyously speak about JESUS, praise JESUS you must do it BOLDLY!!! with all your heart and soul....

well, what was funny was that as i was listening to this, GOD put in my head an incident that happened over 6 years ago with a very then close family member of mine...we had words (as emails do) about my miracle matthew, about LIFE, about how powerful prayer is and what a BEAUTIFUL thing GOD is and how HE can perform miracles...we had a difference of opinions and i was told that THERE IS NO GOD...needless to say, i was EXTREMELY shocked when told this...well, i BOLDLY EVANGELIZED to this person about JESUS and the beautiful things he had done for my family and most especially MATTHEW....needless to say, we have not spoke in over 6 years to my saddness....after this day in bible study, i was soooooo HAPPY that the one thing i NEVER regretted was that i BOLDLY proclaimed my FAITH and my LOVE OF JESUS... i have tried numerous times in the last 6 years to try to mend the fences and try to get them to talk to me but to no avail...this person wants nothing to do with me and for alllllll of my growing up years, from itty bitty to 6 years ago, we have always written to each other and talked to each other...it is so sad to me that i have no part in that life now...and they have none in mine....BUT TODAY, I WAS TOLD BY GOD THAT HE WAS PROUD OF ME...i was at PEACE with what happened 6 years ago and that NOTHING i did was wrong....that we no longer talk is just cross i have to bear....i think of my family memeber OFTEN because i have always had contact with them but GOD WILLING someday, we will once again communicate....i will wait for them to contact me because my heart has grown heavy with the MANY times that i have tried to apologize and try to get them to talk to me and i won't go there anymore...and i have not in over 2 years...

LIFE IS GOOD....GOD IS GOOD....THANK YOU FOR SPEAKING TO ME GOD AND EASING MY THOUGHTS!!! I LOVE YOU!