waves of sadness....

last week, 2 more heart babies that i knew passed away.....one was not even a year old and the other was just shy of 2 years old.....i sit here and just think....wonder.....and GIVE THANKS to GOD that matthew is here with us....it could have EASILY been my family....my baby! i was passing by matthews little high chair and just these thoughts came to me of how it would FEEL if he was not here with us....never seeing him sit in his little high chair....never play with all his toys...never here him laugh or smile.....i couldn't stop the tears that came to me because it was SOOOOOOO REAL! i could FEEL such SADNESS and dispair and all he was doing was sleeping upstairs taking a nap!! i missed him SOOOOOOOO MUCH that i had to run upstairs and check on him to make sure he was breathing and just to reassure myself that he was THERE!!! how DEVESTATING it must be to lose a love one....a baby....my thoughts and prayers are with these 2 families and ALL families that have lost someone special.....i hope that everyone in the world realizes how EASILY things can change.....even a healthy person can be gone from one day to the next.....young....old....when GOD choses to take you home, it's TIME!

anyway, i can only hug and love my family and PRAY for health and safetly......i just hope that everyone realizes how BLESSED they are to have their family/friends in their lives RIGHT NOW!!